March

Feels like it went by super fast but also dragged on at the same time.  I just made sure to try and do a lot with my kids.  Except for the weekend I got strep.  That totally threw a wrench in our fun plans.  I haven't had strep since May so that was great but not great that I got it again. Stay away strep!

Weather was weird.  Sunny 60 degree weather one day and then snow the next day.  It couldn't make up it's mind.  It tried to turn into spring so I tried to get some spring cleaning done.  Tried.  On the sunny days we made sure to go outside and play.  Can't wait for summer!

One day Memphis asked if I would go outside and play catch with him.  We had so much fun and I haven't laughed that hard in a long time. We tried to play catch with a tiny ball that was hard to see.  It was probably hilarious to watch us try to play catch.

 As we were coming in Memphis told me how much he loves me.  Made my momma heart happy.  I needed that bright spot in my life during the hard times we are going through.  Love my Memphis.

 Memphis' teacher is awesome!  She has been such a life changer for Memphis.  She started reading Fablehaven out loud in class and now Memphis is reading it at home.  Makes my reading heart happy.  And Kayzee has started reading chapter books!  Love my kiddos!

 I was so excited when Jessica told me she was in Utah and wanted to see me.  I just love this girl!  I have known her most of her life and she has a special place in my heart.  We went to Texas Roadhouse for lunch and then went shopping.  I got to see her another weekend too.  Love and miss you Jess!

 My kids got haircuts finally.  They both had really long hair it was getting ridiculous ha ha!  Such cuties.

 Had a really fun night with the kids one weekend.  We started with battling against each other playing wii games...

 Then we had a fruit and veggie snack while we watched Ferdinand...

 And last but not least we had a sleepover.  Even though my bed is a king I still had Memphis basically sleeping on top of me.  Kayzee talks in her sleep and likes to sleep sideways the wrong ways.  Still fun to make memories with these two crazies of mine.

 It was teacher appreciation week one week.  Love my door decoration this year.

 Memphis got a cabbage plant at school and if it grows he earns a pizza party.  We followed the directions on the best way to plant it but there were some below freezing nights and one day of pouring rain and it doesn't look too good.  I am horrible with plants.  I always kill them.  Maybe it survived.  Only time will tell but he has been trying his best to take care of it.

 Love that my kids still like to play at parks...

 We also used some more of our punch pass to FUNTOPIA!  The slide was working this time.  YAY!

 Summerlost by Ally Condie---one of my favorite books I have read so far this year..."I have been in the presence of a lot of greatness.  And people I love who love me back.  It might be the same thing."  Loved it!

In February I met with a few lawyers.  I am filing for divorce and I explained to each of them my situation.  I just wanted my kids and me taken care of so we can survive as a new family of 3.  And I was so overwhelmed with everything we would have to divide up and figure out.  The lawyers told me their ideas and how they would move forward to help me.  In March I ended up picking one that my neighbors used and his kids are in my PE classes.  He is awesome!  Teacher discount ha ha!  The main goal was that me and the kids stay in the house and that I keep my part-time job so that I can be there for the kids since I will have sole custody.  We didn't want anything changing too much for the kids.

It's been HARD!  I have definitely gone through the stages of grief...crying, anger, denial, acceptance, etc.  I worry about my kids and they have had a hard time too.  Kayzee cries a lot and expresses her anger a lot.  But she always makes the best of each situation.  So glad she has so many friends to distract her and cheer her up.  Memphis doesn't really talk about it.  He has been acting out in negative ways at school and has been getting in trouble a lot.  I am trying to get him in to a counselor.  The whole situation just breaks my heart.  But I am so grateful for my kids in my life.  They cheer me up and keep me going every day.  We got this!