May

We have been so busy and having so much fun I realized I haven't blogged about our May yet...

Kayzee started off our May with her 1st grade program

 She was chosen to do a speaking part.  She was so nervous but she did awesome!  After the program she started crying and I asked her what was wrong.  She said she didn't want 1st grade to end.  A part of me didn't want it to end either because that means she is growing up.

Had to post some cute pictures of my nephews.  They are growing up so fast and I am missing it!  I am excited to see James next week and hopefully Max in October!

Mother's Day was in May.  This picture of me and my mom was taken last year.  Anyone who knows my mom knows that she is just simply amazing!  She is an amazing mom, friend, daughter, sister, wife, and grandma.  She has been an amazing example to me of faith and love.  I love my mom!!!  She always loves and supports me through the good times and the bad.

This year has been a year with new firsts as a single mom and our new little family of three especially with each holiday.  I was thinking back over the years and I can honestly say that this has been the best Mother's Day I have ever had!!!  I woke up to the two most important people in my life in my arms, these two kids who made me a mom.  My kids spoiled me this weekend.  They cleaned the entire house all by themselves and I didn't even ask them to.  They made me breakfast in bed (pop tarts:).  We had a movie night and sleepover.  And they gave me presents and told me all day how much they love me.  They definitely know how to cheer me up.  These two kiddos of mine are what keep me going every day.  Yes, life has been really hard lately getting a divorce but knowing I have these two precious kids by my side is all that matters.

 Love this sweet boy of mine.  He definitely looks out for me and is always checking to make sure I am ok.  He tells me all day everyday how much he loves me and is the first to give me hugs and kisses.  I am so grateful he came into my life when he did.  So blessed to be his mommy!

I don't know what I would do without this crazy beautiful girl in my life.  She is just the sweetest.  I am excited to grow up with her so we can do girly things together.  Whenever she is not with me she has to have a picture of me and that just melts my heart.  So blessed to be her mommy!

The end of the school year is always exhausting!  One day I got home from school and took a 2 hour nap!  Sad thing was it was only a Monday and it was early out day.

Dance Festival was so good this year!  I loved all the grade level dances and especially the teacher dance!  They did a parody of Greatest Showman.  It was hilarious!

Kayzee danced to the "Best Day" of your life.  Love that my kids go to the school I teach at so I don't miss anything!

 Memphis danced to a mashup to a bunch of superhero songs.  He can sure bust a move!

On Memorial Day I got to spend the day with my kiddos.  We went to a really fun park in Orem.

 Then we headed over to the new children's play place in the University Mall.

 We also had to do some Virtual Reality.

Mrs. Dibb is the best teacher in the world!  She loved my Memphis EVERY day no matter what (even when he started a fire at recess!).  Memphis learned to love reading and was so excited to go to school every day because she made it so fun.  She also understood what it felt like to have parents divorce so she took extra good care of Memphis.  Thanks for a great year Mrs. Dibb, we will miss you!

 Kayzee was so lucky this year she got to have TWO amazing teachers.  Mrs. Clements and Mrs. Astorga are the most kind and loving teachers you will ever meet.  They loved my Kayzee every day and Kayzee loved them right back.  They also loved her a little bit extra and watched over her during the divorce.  Kayzee learned so much and did so well all by herself I know I don't have to worry about her.  Thanks for the best year Mrs. Clements and Mrs. Astorga, we will miss you!

Last day of school YAY!!!  Another school year done!

Look at how much Kayzee has grown this year!

 Memphis!

 I had the best school year and had a lot of fun with my students in PE!

This divorce has broken me.  Everyone keeps telling me how strong I am and what an amazing mom I am.  I am definitely trying and some days I feel like I can take on anything that is thrown at me.  But right now I feel like I don't belong where I am at.  People are treating me different even some people who I thought were my friends.  I just want to move away and start over.  But I also have some amazing good people in my life.  They are my solid ground when I feel like I am falling.  To my closest friends and family I LOVE YOU!  And a special thanks to my next door neighbors.  They are the best people anyone could ask for.  They have helped me the most through all this and I don't know how I will ever repay them.

I am so grateful for my part-time teaching job so I have the summers off.  I am so excited for all the vacations I have planned so I can escape my real life for a little while.  My summer is going to be vacationing, reading, relaxing, playing, swimming, and spending every minute with the two loves of my life-my kids.  My two kids are my whole world and I am so blessed to have them.  They definitely take care of me when I am struggling to take care of myself.